Hide and go seek
Hide and go seek was my favorite game as a child. The best part is I still play it. I hide and then try to seek the meaning behind my actions.
Whom do I hide from, you ask? Well, I hide from myself/my thoughts.
How do I hide? I find hiding places in things/people/memories.
Surprising, but true - not just for me, for almost everyone. As humans we develop the habit of ‘holding on’ — to things/people/memories . It gives us an alternate reality that we can cling to, so that we don’t have to face the truth. It is our fail-safe mechanism that provides us a place to hide from being vulnerable.
What makes us vulnerable? Our innermost thoughts/feelings.
So what do we do? We don’t think. We find distractions.
Distraction can be in any form: Work, household chores, books, television, mobile games — anything that will distract us from delving deep down into ourselves.
Who wins? No one. The game always ends with a gaping hole in our soul.
All of us know, deep down, there is a voice waiting to be heard. A voice which will lead us to the right path, which will define our live’s purpose. But most of us don’t realise how we create or run toward distractions to help us drown out that voice. Over the years, that voice becomes feeble as the distractions, like a fog, cover up our waking minds.
Why should we listen to that voice? We listen so that we can walk the path chosen for us. We listen, to align our lives with the ways of the universe. We listen, to fulfill our destiny.
I’ve fought many a bitter battle with myself — a battle to give up the distraction, uncover the fog and listen to what my soul is telling me.
Listening to the soul takes discipline to really hear, and to feel. It’s an ongoing battle and the world is always ready to come forth with just the right type of distraction that pushes the ‘holding on’ or ‘hide behind’ button, leaving the soul unheard.
It has been my quest to hear my soul speak. Hearing that voice speak makes me feel vulnerable and liberated at the same time. It’s exhilarating.
Here are a few pointers on how I try to reduce the ‘hide/hold on’ and allow my soul to speak:
- Seek the early morning stillness: My soul speaks to me in the stillness of the dawn. I have observed that the language of the soul is not words, it is an emotion, a feeling. I’ve often heard that voice while I sit near a window, observing the sun rise, while I hold a mug of steaming coffee in my hand.
- Nature: This does not really mean that you pack up and move to the Himalayas to be one with nature. No, you can be one with nature just by being mindful of nature’s gifts. I often heard my soul while in the act of observing nature. I notice how the breeze gently ruffles the leaves on the trees, the angle of the sun beam as it rises through the sky, the nature of the cool air that I breathe, the birds as they glide through the morning sky. Be one with nature. Observe her, through her, the soul speaks.
- Gratitude: Being grateful is the best way to open up your heart to hear that voice. The present may never be the same as the future. Who is to say how the future will look. Being grateful for the present is a way of connecting with the soul.
- Create a thought routine: As I sit still, I analyse one small aspect of myself that can help me onward. For example, Monday I reflect on my relationship with my spouse/daughters. Tuesday is for my career/job. Wednesday is for the most recent relationship I’ve developed. Thursday is to mull over that niggling idea which longs to see the light of day — you get my drift?
- Learn to be honest with yourself: Judging others? Easy as pie. Judging yourself? Almost impossible. Honesty, I’ve learnt, is very hard; especially if you have to be honest with yourself. But it is just this honesty that can reveal to you your innermost thoughts.
- Be mindful: I’ve learnt to be mindful about my thoughts. Being a very imaginative person, my thoughts often run wild. Being aware of where my thoughts are taking me helps me be in control and it is there that I meet my soul. Be humble and sincere enough to turn back or redirect your thoughts through the path of self discovery.
It’s time to stop playing hide — it’s time to seek. Hear what your soul has to say. It might surprise you!